List of Fears

I decided to make a list of my fears. I will add to the list as I recognize them.

I am afraid:

Of making the wrong decision
Of rejection
Of injury
Of vomit
Of Horror Movies (in general)
Of failing
Of missing opportunities
Of disappointment
Of confrontation
Of being forgotten or being left out
Of getting lost
Of severe embarrassment

GLEE, School, Soccer, etc.

So I havent blogged in a while… ive thought about it, but I just never got around to it. The past month has gone by so fast! Im still running to the mailbox everyday anticipating decision letters, because I keep forgetting I don’t have to worry about that for another week.

Soccer finally started and it’s going pretty well. We lost yesterday to Farragut 0-2, and won today against Pheonix Military Academy 1-0. I almost scored 2 goals with my penalty kicks. Oh well. There’s plenty of time for that later. And apparently Mahon and Nance were at the game, and I didn’t see either of them. SO disappointed. I hardly ever get to see Nance and I miss her as a Coach. She’s an awesome person.

Grades are going fine. Calculus is getting really difficult. I HATE integrals. Lol I started off this semester with a 102% in the class, and now I have a 94% because I failed a test due to a bunch of little mistakes. D:

Just ordered two new Threadless t-shirts today! YES!

Forked out a new AP Lang essay due Monday. My approach was completely wrong so now I have to choose a new argument and start all over. That made me really sad today, along with...

I did it again. I saw him in the hallway, and I couldn't get my mouth to open and say something intelligible. And it makes me so mad! Why do I do that? Perfect opportunity to say hi, and what do I do? Say nothing. I'm such a loser.

Alex is having similar drama in her life, and she asks me for advice. I would love to help and try to, but the fact is: I'm in the same situation and I don't know what to do. I give her all kinds of advice and try to help her figure things out, but I have no experience in the area. I really wish I could help her though. She's awesome! And is also looking for a prom date as I am. We are running out of time...prom is only 2 months away. Not that it matters. :D

Read a few good books lately: I'm really enjoying "Need" right now, along with "A Natural History of the Senses" that we're reading in AP Lang. HATED "Hard Cash" . Loved "Hush, Hush".

Oh and before I forget, my mom and I wrote into the Oprah Show about how obsessed with GLEE we are, and they invited us to the show! I've always wanted to be on Oprah. And I can't believe I'm going to be in the same. room. as. LEA MICHELE, my favorite singer! OH MY GOSH. I can't explain how excited I am.

Alright, time to go continue to read Need.

Listening to: Wanna Be Startin' Something Remix (feat. Akon) by Michael Jackson